i picked myself up again...

SO its been a while. a long while.

it seems that for a few weeks i fell off the proverbial wagon.

fell off from my gym trips... fell off from avoiding late night ice cream... fell off from blogging...

i found myself uninspired. unmotivated. personal worries, issues, sadness and the usual overworked life style that i lead left me not trying as hard. i was ashamed. i gained back very quickly the 15 lbs i had lost. my boyfriends bike shop put stress in our world, and made him less than wonderful to be around some days, and my job(s) put even more stress on me personally - i've been driving 3 hours a day to work several jobs, with little to show or accolades to receive. i had an art show that consumed me and while painting, the last thing i worried about was the gym or my food intake.

is this what they call yo you dieting?


but for the past two weeks i have been reinspired. i had to face my issues head on and realize that i'm the only person who can change me. i also know that i felt the need to have someone to answer to.

so i sought out my friend Betsy. She is a personal trainer and nutritionist in California. She sent me an inspiring letter filled with do's and dont's. and i decided to give it a try.

so i did. and the first week in - without even going to the gym - lost 5 lbs.

this is a good jump start!

so it means no more ice cream. period. no more cheese. no more bread. all the yummy things i love are gone. and during the summer: this is NOT easy. but i'm figuring it out!

so tonight i'm taking my newly inspired self to the hospital to watch the birth of my first niece, Chloe. i cannot wait to meet her.

and then thursday morning i'm riding the Hellcat to work, loading it in the trailer of Baker crap, and heading south for the Smokeout rally.

i hope for a weekend of fun, friends, bikes and relaxation.

Next week i add the gym back into my routine and hope for the very best to continue happening.

Betsy helped me set a goal - where do i want to be by August 1st? i wanted to lose 30 lbs by then. thats agressive. but i have shed 5. and if i shed a few more every week, by August first i bet i can be really close.

so lets see what happens. :)



i hope that this brings me some satisfaction and helps make my relationship stronger and more exciting. i hope that it helps me feel like a renewed person.

mostly i hope i get it handled so i can talk about more things than dieting.

;)